I hear the pita pata of raindrops being flung onto my window.
The wind using all of its ferocity to punish each raindrop.
I wonder to myself what the raindrops did to offend the wind.
Did they disrupt the cooling affect on a humid day?
Did they provide the cool on a sweltering day?
Could I be wrong.
Could the wind and rain be working in harmony?
To provide a soothing sound? To relax people?
So many questions.
So few answers.
‘I want to meet you’
These words they echo round my head
Why was I dreaming this
This is the past
That I have moved on
Forced myself to hate you
Then as if by magic you reappear
Like a haunting memory
Waiting for a resolution
I’m stood here in the shower
The water it streams down from my head down my face like a waterfall
The sound it calms me
Allows me to slow down life and be at one with my thoughts
I reflect on my day, my year, my life
Contemplating the choices I’ve made
Were they good, bad or too early to tell
I shake my head
Why am I thinking about the past?
It’s not something I can change
I need to look forward
And think what do I want
And how do I get there
Can’t find my way back
Do I want to come back though
What awaits my return
Does anyone care
I think I’ll stay lost
That’ll answer all my questions
I just saw her
She looked beautiful
She was laughing and smiling at me
We were surrounded by other people
But all we saw was each other
Her smile was perfect
I’ve never seen someone like that before
And she liked me for being me
Was it a dream
Or was it a glimpse into my future
I’m so impatient that I want to know now
I’m sat opposite you
I see you hair glisten
It sat perfectly on your shoulder
A breeze passes by
It whispers your name to me
Yet who is this person I see
Their face is a blur
I try to focus
But alas it is no good
I’m left with the bittersweet memory that I will see you soon
Our meeting has been written but it’s not today
You look from the outside and see me smiling
This is what I choose to show
Deep down I’m empty
But again I smile
My smile is a sign of tears
But again I smile
Because I want to deceive you
Next time you see me look at my eyes
And you’ll see the truth